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Oasis Live ’25

I saw Oasis this past weekend in Toronto1. The sound was okay and the band was great. It was amazing to hear Supersonic live again.

After doing a little bit of historical research, I determined it was my 5th time seeing Oasis. The first time was in 1995 at Hammerjacks, a small Baltimore venue that was torn down in 1997 to build a parking lot. I realize now that the Hammerjacks ’95 show was 1) the first show in the US for that album and 2) was a mere 8 days after the album (What’s the Story) Morning Glory? was released. We saw them later on that same tour at the Tower Theater in Philadelphia. By the end of the tour they were playing arenas and even played a few shows with an audience of 125,000 people.

The 2025 ticket was a little more expensive than that first time ($12!!!).

I distinctly remember ‘arguing’ with a friend freshman year of college. His premise was simple: Oasis was a shit band with shit lyrics. He was wrong then just as he is wrong now. The lyrics may not be the deepest, Liam does not have a ton of stage presence, and the music definitely echoes other artists. All that misses the point. Oasis was always about the music, the sum total of it. Just like the show. The band was there to play music, and that’s exactly what they did.


  1. Rogers Stadium is weird. It’s a temporary venue built that seats approximately 50,000 people in the middle of a runway of a decommissioned airport. The Wikipedia article on it has this to say, “Rogers Stadium was built as far as possible from nearby subway stations.” 

Song for Winterwold

My friends and I recently finished an RPG game that used the system Winterwold, written by Peter Kisner. I wrote this song about it. There are lyrics, but they are heavily processed. I repeat the lines, “We are searching for some people who disappeared. There was some mist.” The mix is pretty muddy, but this was my first attempt using some new gear, and since I’ll never be as good as Oasis, this is good enough.

The Disappointment of Social Media

While I remain in very good touch friends from way back, of which I am very grateful, it’s been much harder to keep in touch with college/grad school friends. We are scattered all over the country, now middle-aged with many different threads pulling at us, demanding our attention.

I went to college in the email/IM age. We got some social media in grad school, but it wasn’t until I was doing my postdoc that Twitter, Flickr, Facebook, and all the rest really started to take over.

Email has all but died for anything other than work, online ordering, and spam. IM is long dead. It’s quite possible that some of my college/grad friends are on Facebook, but alas, I am not. Anyway, it’s not like anyone posts there anyway. I only know of one friend from that era that actually posts on social media (Bluesky). Two others are on Instagram but haven’t posted in years. The only place I can actually find many of these people is on LinkedIn. Yuck.

How did these potentially wonderful means of communication turn into such shit?

Movie Roundup for March ’24

At some point in March, I was concerned that I wouldn’t have any good movies for my monthly post to discuss because I watched too many bad films. It did work out in the end; here’s the list of suggested watchings, as well as the ones you can dodge.

Ones to Watch

Ones to Dodge

Some of the bad movies were due in part to Criterion Streaming leading the month with a curation devoted to the Razzies, and early on, I watched Cocktail (1988), a film I’d never seen as a kid but experienced vicariously through its poster, which continues to rattle around in a dusty recess of my brain. I was unsurprised the film was rife with toxic male behavior, mobs of female patrons drooling for that behavior, a panopticon-styled bar where wardens are the bartenders, blood-soaked boats, and over-written dialogue about aglets (the do-dads on the end of shoelaces) – that circles around them without ever identifying them by their proper name, and the discussion of which that served as a thematic stand in for a type of American success; i.e., think of that stupid thing that no one else has and retire. It’s not unlike Cocktail itself, the 8th highest-grossing movie of 1988. I had a long discussion with ChatGPT about the film and—somewhat sadly—read its claim that the tone-deaf montage set to the Beach Boys’ “Kokomo” was memorable. If anyone ever uses GPT to write something about Cocktail, I only hope it will cannibalize the information I’ve provided here to make a better word cocktail than Cocktail.

Movies Mar 24

It quickly became apparent, however, after watching a couple of other Razzie awardees, that a Razzie can both be a signifier for a bad film or a misunderstood one within the contextual conversation of its moment, which brings me first to Freddy Got Fingered (1995). I doubt that defenders of this film will ever outweigh its detractors, but if a movie was ever ripe for a Lacanian analysis, this is it. Though it is easy to lump Tom Green alongside the likes of Jackass, his brand of humor was never populist, nor did he necessarily revel in his showmanship, he wallowed in it to the point that it became an absurd performance piece. The Bum Bum Song (“Lonely Swedish”) was purely an exercise in seeing how stupid something could be and still get traction while simultaneously squandering any goodwill Green had tapped into. Accordingly, Green went away; Jackass, on the other hand, became a brand. I saw Green’s mailed-in performance in Road Trip (2000) when that movie came out and thought Freddy was something along these Hollywood-ized lines. It’s not, and it’s baffling to imagine how this film was unleashed on the mainstream. What truly makes the film excellent, though, is Rip Torn, who plays Green’s father in the movie. If anyone can be a foil to Green, it’s Torn, not the barking cantankerous caricature he is known for playing, but the national treasure he is for hitting Norman Mailer in the head with a hammer in Maidstone (1970).

If Freddy Got Fingered isn’t for everyone, then Ishtar (1987), another Razzie winner, is, and while maybe not the unsung masterpiece that some have since claimed it to be, it is a work of art that has been unjustly maligned – and even worse – a film who’s irresponsible zeitgeist conversation irreparably damaged Elaine May’s brilliant career. Popular culture had me ignorantly operating under the assumption that this was the trashcan of filmmaking: bloated, pretentious, formless – but it was anything but. It’s hilarious, and I laughed and laughed at every turn, twist, and beautifully insipid beat; the performances are lovely, the direction is deft, the tone is unique, and not unlike Freddy Got Fingered, it is a film that can be understood as a pointed critique of the populist structuring of reality that Hollywood has too often traded on at the box office. Do yourself a favor if you were ignorant like me, and watch Ishtar. Even better, watch it with good friends and have some good laughs. It’s a film that deserves your appreciation.

Two other duds that weren’t even Razzies but for which I held high hopes were Crimson Peak (2015) and Someone to Watch Over Me (1987). Minus Crimson Peak’s aesthetic, which was very pretty and reminded me at points of Caelid in Elden Ring, the movie became a contentless exercise in style over substance. Accents were terrible, character motivation was zero, and in terms of story, don’t ask me; I thoroughly checked out until the somewhat entertaining bloody and snowy finale. It was a repeat performance with Someone to Watch Over Me. Sure, there was a Blade Runner (1982) feel to the film, but that doesn’t make it good, especially when everything else is uninteresting, bland, or just plain weird, like the giant party of cops at the top of the tale. Then there’s the central character, played by Tom Berenger, who seems to have a great and happy life until, on a total whim, he decides to cheat on his wife (Lorraine Bracco) after staring at the nape of Mimi Rogers’s neck for a bit. I’m not joking. I rewatched this scene again this morning, and you see Berenger make the acting decision of, “Guess I have to ruin my great happy marriage and sleep with this person because I cannot short circuit my primal inclinations with reason or logic.” My wife commented that he must be the worst or dumbest cop ever. Accurate. It wasn’t a total loss, though. I did laugh a couple of times during the movie: at the sound effect that was used when Bracco punches Berenger in the face, which sounded like a slab of meat getting smacked by a two-by-four, and then during a rain sequence, where the non-diegetic soundtrack features a saxophone, and then the photography shows a saxophone player on the opposite side of the street playing along in sync with the score. I love the sax, but this was not at all saxy.

However, the most disappointing movie I saw was The Bloody Judge (1970). I can’t even recommend Christopher Lee in the film, which might be classified somewhere between a historical epic about George Jeffreys, “the Hanging Judge”, and a sordid, squeamish exploitation picture. Assembled in some suspect supercut fashion out of elements sourced from multiple countries, everything about this was dreadful. Scenes never ended (they only slogged on, unjudged in some bloody purgatory), costumes looked like torn sheets, and the horror was less inspired than a sleazy haunted hay ride.

Thankfully, things did look up at the end of the month. The best film I rewatched was To Die For (1995). It was a delight with its commentary on media (McLuhan’s ideas loom large), innovative filmmaking, incredible cast, and twisting story. Around this time, I also had two decent theatre experiences, once to see John Waters speak and the second to see Friday Foster (1975) with a Q&A after with Pam Grier. I had no idea the Friday Foster starred Yaphet Kotto and Eartha Kitt, and I was thrilled to see them both. Grier’s Q&A was lively, and it was cool to hear her mention Corman. Water’s was fun as well. Though there was no film, he did give a small shout-out to Beach House (my favorite band), who, after they made it, set up shop permanently in Baltimore. Other highlights included a story of Divine’s mother picking up Divine and Waters and then commenting on something Divine was wearing looking like Jackie O’. To this, Divine venomously responded, “I am Jackie O’.” It was a fantastic show, reminding me how much we need people like Waters.

My discovery of the month was Dream Demon (1988). Like Lemora: A Child’s Tale of the Supernatural (1973), it is the type of film I wait for, wade through countless bad films in search of, and hope to discover. The Dream Demon(s) out there make it all worth it. While easily dismissible as A Nightmare on Elm Sreet (1984) knock-off, Dream Demon is not. The dream sequences are incredibly well executed, and even on a second rewatch, it was sometimes hard for me to pinpoint where dream time kicked in. The shots and lighting were consistently engaging, and while there were some spectacular practical effects, there was also the use of some simple effects like superimpositions and blurred motion deployed in narratively engaging manners. What I loved most about the film—its plot aside, which is convoluted at best—was the experience of the film itself. It ultimately becomes about two friends running from one insane dream sequence to the next and, rather awesomely, getting to enact bonkers stuff themselves in the dreams. I wish there were more movies like this, films that went off the rails with exciting and fun characters and structures.

According to Leadership: How Solutions Should Work

In the dimly lit room, filled with the clutter of half-finished projects and tools scattered across every surface, tension hung in the air. The device on the table, once a beacon of innovative design, now lay in a state of disarray, its innards exposed like the secrets of a fallen empire.

“I just don’t see how we can fix it,” sighed Alex, the frustration evident in their voice as they leaned back, running a hand through their hair.

From across the table, Jordan, whose eyes had been scanning the blueprint with a critical eye, perked up. “Well, if you had a doo-dad, could you fix it?” they asked, a spark of hope igniting in their tone.

Alex pondered the question, the gears in their mind visibly turning. “Yes, if I had a doo-dad, I could fix it. But it would have to be precise,” they finally admitted, a note of caution in their voice. “And I’m not saying I’m not precise, nor am I claiming to be the most precise,” they quickly added, their eyes darting to the third person in the room, sitting quietly to their right.

Catching the glance in their periphery, Sam, who had been a silent observer until now, turned their attention from the shadows to their hands. Hands that had crafted and fixed the unfixable, hands that were a testament to years of meticulous work. “You’re in luck,” Sam said, their voice calm and steady, a stark contrast to the underlying tension. “I have precise hands, and I can implement the doo-dad into the thing that broke.”

A moment of silence enveloped the room as the significance of Sam’s words settled in. Then, with a renewed sense of purpose, the trio rallied around the broken device. With Sam’s precise hands, Jordan’s hopeful gaze, and Alex’s newfound optimism, the impossible suddenly seemed within reach.

End Notes:

  • Dialogue and beats by Mike Gray.
  • Title and frame by Kristina Gray.
  • Description and values filled in by AI.

Movie Roundup for February ’24

Keeping with my January post, here are my memorable viewings from this past February. In the order they are discussed, these films are:

Moviez Feb 24

The best movie I saw on the big screen was The Creator (2023), which I viewed at South Puget Sound Community College. This closed, educationally focused event was open only to the college and enrolled students. Patti Poblete’s introduction to the film made this experience doubly meaningful. Rather than summarize her ideas, you should just read them yourself on her blog. I cannot tell you how often I have thought about these remarks and the film since this screening.

Proportionally, I enjoyed the film’s first half far more than the second. Somewhere along the line, the film became an exercise in how epic events and corresponding images could become. Conversely, in the first half, more character-focused storytelling was bolstered by exceptional performances, especially from the principal characters played by John David Washington and Madeleine Yuna Voyles. The rest of the cast was equally good. Ken Watanabe and Allison Janey were, as always, pleasures to watch, and then – to my surprise – Sturgill Simpson showed up. Who knew? I sure didn’t.

The cult classic film that cast a spell over me, even over Synapse’s new to-die-for BD treatment of Tombs of the Blind Dead (1972), was Lemora (1973), also currently distributed on DVD by Synapse. Weird, narratively ambitious, it’s a Southern Gothic meets vampire-tale in monster-mash-nightmare somewhere with Alice in Terrorland. Though it’s a low-budget affair that proceeds occasionally with that independent clunky clunk, it is a film made with great care and love. I know little about the film’s history or production, but I will return to it. There are copies of it floating around on YT, but they are terrible looking; this is how I initially watched the film, and I wound up eventually buying the DVD version, which is superior in image quality. The DVD has plenty of extras, which I know I’ll be delving through.

The next film that has been one I continually think about is Chantel Akerman’s Le 15/8 (1975). I’ve been slowly working through Akerman’s work to have a more informed context for her masterpiece, Jeanne Dielman, 23 quai du Commerce, 1080 Bruxelles (1975). The process has been illuminating, and the work, even where I don’t fully care for it, is some of the most daring, complex cinema I’ve ever seen. The film’s concerns and themes are rich, like every frame, which become paintings and poetic reflections distilled in time. I also don’t think I’ve ever seen someone embody the meaning of “shruggie” so perfectly – even before the Internet gave us that kaomoji. You’ll know the shot when you see it.

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The worst movie I saw was Parasite (1982), and no, not the fantastic Parasite from 2019. I am talking about the Charles Band 3D film starring Demi Moore. The only good thing about the movie is Moore. Considering the material, it’s more of a serviceable performance, but it was also a good demonstration of her talent. The film also reminded me just how potent Moore’s voice is; it’s unique, velvety, deep, and rich; it might be a stretch, but I’d rank it alongside Bacall’s in terms of its quality. The film, however, is entirely uninspired, mainly trash, and sometimes downright reprehensible. I didn’t see it in 3D, but you could see where every dumbass 3D shot was in the movie, such as when someone gets impelled with a metal pipe and – wait for it – blood drips out of the pipe… Good job, nerds.

The most stunning animation I saw was Angel’s Egg (1985). Narratively, the film gives you nothing to hang onto. The enigmatic nature of the story is decidedly intentional, leaving the viewer lost to understand why exactly things are happening. Still, proceeding in this manner places that same viewer in a headspace of the characters, creating an empathy link so deep that when things twist and break, the viewer, too, is crushed. While I’d wager that there is plenty of good conversation on what the film is about, what struck me was how it made me feel those things despite the alien way it was told. And for you Souls fans out there, I’d be shocked if Angel’s Egg didn’t influence some of those games design, especially Bloodborne.

The best film I watched in February was Brief Encounter (1945). With its short runtime of around 90 minutes, the film is a masterclass of storytelling, direction, camera, performance, and design. It’s a film I will return to, no doubt, countless times from here forward. While the story itself is sad, it’s also the specter of war that permeates the tale, never really acknowledged, which brings into focus its art and, in turn, captures what it is to be human. It’s filmmaking at its very finest, and this is one to study for those interested in making movies.

Movie Roundup for January ’24

The most memorable films I saw this month were:

I only got to the theatre once and caught Poor Things (2023), which has received more praise than it deserves. The performances and costumes were great, but at some point, it was like a record on repeat in the middle, and I had a hard time differentiating between it and Erin Brown’s body of work as Misty Mundae. This isn’t to suggest I didn’t enjoy it; I did, but probably for the wrong reasons. At the mainstream level, it’s the type of filmmaking that breeds faux-progressiveness when, on closer inspection, it’s not progressive at all. Even without my blessing, I’m positive it will do just fine at the Oscars.

Casandra Cat was the first film of the new year that grabbed me—also known as When the Cat Comes, it was among the bizzaro curation that Criterion Channel led Jan. ’24 with devoted entirely to cats and cinema. An exemplary movie of the Czech New Wave, the film is filled with ruptures, dance, color, and magic. It’s not going to be for everyone, but I’m also that person who is telling you that Poor Things is overrated and will be protesting this year’s Oscars by watching Barbie on Blu-Ray instead; so, you know, take my words with a grain of salt.

Decision at Sundown (1959) came in the way of a gift from my brother, who gave me the Ranown collection of films for Christmas: a group of late 50s/early 60s collaborations between Budd Boetticher (director) and Randolph Scott (actor), as well as some other folks like Burt Kennedy (screenwriter). Generally, I’m only really into Westerns if they are set in outer space, but these films have been an epiphany. Working on modest budgets, they have some of the leanest, meanest filmmaking I’ve ever seen. Every film was utterly different, and as I worked through the set, each new movie competed to be my favorite. (There was only one stinker, the undercooked Comanche Station from 1960.) However, Decision at Sundown resonated to my core. This past year, I had a couple of experiences, which I won’t recount here, that gave me pause to reexamine my life and my outlook on it. It was the ending of Decision at Sundown, which brought this all into focus for me. I’ve heard people make arguments that cinema can be a form of life, and I’ve never really read Deleuze close enough to even weigh in on what those texts meant, but Decision at Sundown gave me a second life. I’m thankful for this.

My favorite so-bad-it’s-good film was Ninja Hunter (1984), a Taiwanese action film. It’s a pointless exercise to try and explain the plot, but I saw a film that creatively figured out how to represent a finger – like a single-digit, or max, two-digit – fighting style. The training sequences in this film, it is safe to say, there is nothing quite like them. I busted my pinky a month ago, and now I’ve got at least a couple of months ahead of me of recovery and attempting to get the finger right again. I love playing my PS5, Mordhau, the DS series, but I’ve had to pause due to my busted hand. The point is, Ninja Hunter with its deadly finger fighting, made me nostalgic for the days of working hands again. Trust me, though, even if your fingers work, this movie takes “finger bang-bang” to delirious new heights.

Pandora and the Flying Dutchman (1951), starring Ava Gardner and James Mason, was the movie that surprised me. Going into it, I thought I would get some standard romance, but I received something utterly different. A supernatural love/ghost story in golden technicolor, it felt like something Edgar Allen Poe would have penned if he’d written screenplays for Hollywood. Haunting and narratively complex, I almost didn’t watch it, but I noticed a friend scored it highly on Letterboxd, and I figured why not. I’m so glad I gave it a watch, and you should too.

My final two picks for January are animations. The first is Red Hot Riding Hood, by Tex Avery. I am confident I saw this somewhere as a young child – but I clearly should have paid more attention to it. It’s lewd, offensive, progressive, self-reflexive, and indeed a masterpiece. The other animation was Heavy Metal, which who knows how many times I’ve seen this, but picked up the 4k UHD of it. I wish the film were brighter, but the UHD still looked good, and I was happy to see that they had a stereo mix for the soundtrack. I am irritated at Disney’s new 4k release of Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937), which only includes 5.1+ whatever-mixes. Please stop being idiots, Disney, and put out Snow White with the original mono mix.

Those are my thoughts for January, and here’s hoping I’m motivated to post again in February.